After the rain...

After the rain washes all clean

The wind blows sweetly around and about.

Here's where I sit, not being seen

Feeling the winds, hearing their shouts.

The wind, rain and clouds all appear

To be working to make things more clear.

Clean and sparkly, the earth smiles again

And it's time to start over, a chance to begin.

I witness the curious squirrels peeking.

The birds fly over, in their seeking.

The earthworm wiggles out from it's loam

And I sigh and smile, this is my home.

This is the place where all makes sense,

Where order is given precedence.

Here no police stomps over the ground

To see what fool is creeping around.

Here peace reigns supreme and sane

And I find myself drawn here again and again.

When life pulls down the spirit of man,

I run to here, wind, rain and sand...

My choice...

Why did I stay

everything is going wrong

I thought things would be better

why is this taking so long?

I thought by staying

everything would be okay

but by staying

everything is going one way

I don't want to take this path

but I really don't have a choice

everyone is telling me "you can do it"

but I'm only listening to one voice

this voice cannot be heard

it is only in my head

I wish it would shut up

but it keeps talking instead

the voice is loud some days

quiet on others

it talks most of the time

and it makes me suffer

I know the choice I made

is the right one at times

but some days it seems

that my choice was out of line

I feel bad for what I did

and i can't get past the guilt

but they always cut me down

now my self esteem needs to be rebuilt...

Fighting for my life...

Fighting for courage 

hoping for change 

singing your thoughts 

and wishing your dreams 

loving those whom you fight for 

hating the ones you would die for 

missing the ones you cry for 

and caring for the ones who don't care for you...

Caring for people more then yourself, 

helping the ones who need it most, 

sharing with those who have nothing 

and forgetting to take time for you...

all this consists of things i do 

things i wish for 

and things i would die for...

I don't even have to say who or what they are...

You can decide that on your own.